Life’s puzzle of spreadsh*ts - A journey of self-improvement / Andrew Dewar || Don’t Pick the Scab Podcast #034 || David M. Webb

[00:00:00] Welcome to the DONT PICK THE SCAB PODCAST with the premise of connecting man over 40 with

[00:00:21] the tools and community to thrive in their divorce recovery either before, during or

[00:00:26] after a divorce. Check it out.

[00:00:29] David M. Webb Welcome everybody out there to DONT PICK THE SCAB PODCAST, Episode 34. Welcome

[00:00:35] Andrew DeWart to the show. Andrew is a CPA and a former accountant and an advanced data healer.

[00:00:42] His superpower is helping other engage their power of self-improvement. He has overcome various

[00:00:47] obstacles in his life which led him to this passion. He has a website called the Five Year

[00:00:53] And that explores his gift along with his co-founder Catherine Collins. So Andrew, tell us

[00:00:59] about your journey and your superpower and what advice can you give to my divorce men over 40?

[00:01:05] Andrew DeWart Wow. Well thank you for the intro and for having me on. I always appreciate it.

[00:01:11] My story goes back a long time and I'm going to start in the middle then I'll kind of go back.

[00:01:18] So a few years ago I was winning the life game. I had the house paid off, I had the cars,

[00:01:29] I had the kid, I had the great wife. I had one. As far as society calls winning the life game,

[00:01:38] I had the things and I was also getting sicker as time went on. I had indigestion.

[00:01:45] I had indigestion my whole life but it was getting worse and worse and I was getting

[00:01:50] treated for it. And in that treatment I basically came down to a water diet and I was still having

[00:01:57] indigestion and that's when I was going to acupuncture at the time and she said, you know,

[00:02:04] it might be an emotional thing where your head and your heart are disagreeing and that forced

[00:02:09] me, I just started bawling in the room and it was like the first time I had kind of cried

[00:02:15] in front of anyone in any way in a while. There's going to be a lot of probably mentions

[00:02:22] of crying in this episode. That's okay. It's all good. Yeah, I think a little bit of honesty

[00:02:27] with all this stuff really can help us all heal as men. And that's kind of when I really

[00:02:36] propelled me down this road to explore why I was this way and why my head was disagreeing

[00:02:42] with my heart and while on paper and from the outside everything looked perfect,

[00:02:49] I was rotting on the inside because I wasn't being true to myself. It forced me to kind of explore

[00:02:57] everything and as I was doing that I recognized that the abuse I had suffered as a child.

[00:03:05] I have a sister with autism. She's two years younger and she in my early teens,

[00:03:12] she started to abuse me to the point where there was no, it was physical abuse. She would

[00:03:19] pick up anything she could see and just throw it at me at the drop of a dime. There was no

[00:03:26] rhyme or reason to it. I wasn't able to defend myself with that because I had enough knowledge

[00:03:39] to know that this person was hurting me, wasn't in full control of her faculties.

[00:03:46] It's different when I'm from Canada, I play hockey and when I play hockey somebody hits you,

[00:03:52] they're meaning to hit you so you can go back and hit them because that's kind of the give and

[00:03:56] take at that age. But with this, it's like you can't do anything. In that process,

[00:04:05] I learned that home wasn't safe, I learned that there was nowhere safe, I learned that I couldn't

[00:04:10] defend myself when I was attacked and what that did was put these layers around my heart,

[00:04:18] my body, the protective onion layers around and around and around.

[00:04:25] Then all this stuff kind of happened in life and I was just trying to keep myself safe.

[00:04:30] I just really, really wanted to be safe and I'm not aware of this at this point. I'm just going

[00:04:36] through life as a teenager, building my career and just kind of going, okay, well what's the

[00:04:41] plan? Well, the plan is we get the good job, get the good car, get the house, pay off the

[00:04:47] house, have the kids do all these things, go on the trips and nothing was like fixing it,

[00:04:54] I guess for lack of a better word. And that got me to have to explore why that was. And so

[00:05:02] did an EMDR which is I have movement desensitization and I would walk out of these sessions

[00:05:09] feeling sometimes I felt amazing other times I had to sleep in my car because I wasn't good

[00:05:15] enough to drive home and it was nice to work on this but it was draining. So the thing that I

[00:05:25] kind of took away after I was done with all my sessions was like there's, this is a really fast

[00:05:30] way to work on stuff and when I was growing up the best thing you had for trauma and therapy

[00:05:40] was talk therapy and you would go talk about it all over and over and over again and hopefully

[00:05:45] something happened. And I really didn't want to do that so EMDR was kind of that solution. So

[00:05:51] somebody suggested to me after that to try Reiki and I had never tried that before and I wasn't

[00:05:57] even sure what it was nobody could really describe it to me that was doing it but they just said

[00:06:01] like you know it's really good. So I found a Reiki practitioner and after my first session

[00:06:09] she said like you know your chakras were blocked now I don't know what a chakra is at this point so

[00:06:13] I'm hearing this stuff and going like I don't understand any of this but she said like there's

[00:06:19] you know these different chakras and your sacro chakra which is yourself or not yourself it's

[00:06:24] like your energy was in a cage and we let it out. I said okay thanks I don't know what to

[00:06:30] make of this but she said you might be a little tired so go home rest. I'm like okay

[00:06:34] so I went home and slept. This was I got home around Saturday at noon and I didn't wake up till

[00:06:40] Monday morning it just wiped right out and that kind of got me going okay so we can heal a lot

[00:06:48] faster with things than I'm obviously aware of and I'm not proficient in anything at this point

[00:06:55] so I started doing Reiki and then she suggested well have you thought of doing theta healing

[00:07:01] and I said I've never heard about what is it she's like well it kind of works on it's like it's an

[00:07:05] energy healing but it works on your beliefs and it's you know you you do muscle testing and

[00:07:11] whatnot. I'm like okay so I went in and I said you know what do you want to work on

[00:07:17] and I said like I want to work on you know just feeling more abundant I just feel like I'd

[00:07:21] never I've never I've always had that unsafe scarcity mindset and so we worked on that

[00:07:28] and within like a couple of weeks I got a call and I'd want a trip to anywhere I wanted to go

[00:07:33] like I want a $5,000 trip voucher and I'm like okay so there's a lot here with this energy stuff

[00:07:39] because I'm not like I actually didn't even remember signing up for this contest

[00:07:45] and I thought it was a scam at first because you know like of course you do the trip.

[00:07:49] So while this is all happening on the outside of these rooms my

[00:08:01] I'm starting to get divorced and what I'm coming to realize through all of this

[00:08:07] is that I have been living for everyone else my whole life that was I figured if everybody

[00:08:14] else was happy then by default I have to be and I wasn't because I was never honoring myself and who

[00:08:20] I am and what is me. To the point where I moved out a year ago or so about 14 months ago I got

[00:08:31] into this place and it was empty and I thought I don't even know what I like as far as you

[00:08:37] know furniture goes I had always just defaulted to what everybody else wanted because that

[00:08:43] was easier and I was never you know the easy thing would be for me to say oh they never let

[00:08:49] me choose but the truth is I never allowed myself to choose because I was afraid I would lose that

[00:08:55] person and then if I lost that person or that person got upset with me I would be unsafe

[00:08:59] and if I'm unsafe then I'm back in my kind of my flywheel. So college roll back. Yeah

[00:09:07] yeah so I've spent the last year I've learned how to become a Theta healer and there's a whole

[00:09:15] story around that that we don't need to get into and I do energy healing with people I do it remotely

[00:09:22] just like we're doing on this call right now I do it with people and it's been very fulfilling

[00:09:29] and but through this whole process I am still peeling back my own onion layers to get back

[00:09:37] to who I am or just and in my case to discover who I am because my sense of self really wasn't

[00:09:42] happening I got kind of stunted very early on and went into safety mode and when you go into

[00:09:49] safety mode you you know you do whatever you can to survive and it might sound silly to

[00:09:55] one listener but I believe that we all go through these different traumas in our lives so that we

[00:10:00] learn and grow and if we don't if we don't learn the lessons that we keep repeating we're doomed

[00:10:06] to keep repeating them correct and that's where I mean like I never set out for any of this stuff

[00:10:14] to happen it just kind of happened to me um and sometimes the universe has a bigger plan

[00:10:20] for you than you might be aware of and I'm really doing my best to take my hands off the wheel

[00:10:25] and go okay let's just let's just see where it goes to the point where if somebody was telling me

[00:10:31] a year ago that I'd be on a podcast talking about all this stuff I'm like I don't think I could

[00:10:35] pull myself together for you know a dry enough moment in my eyes to to talk about this stuff

[00:10:42] so that that's my story that's the background uh that's awesome in the pre-interview we talked

[00:10:48] about uh divorce being so negative and devastating but but there are some positives that comes out of

[00:10:54] a devastating you know event like divorce because you can do a rebirth yes everybody has I I know

[00:11:02] several people who have been divorced now I didn't know anybody when I was doing it none of

[00:11:08] people that have been married a long time like I I knew of one couple that had separated for

[00:11:13] a year and got back together so I really usual yeah that's very unusual it it is and I see that now

[00:11:21] but you know I'm in uh I was living in a very small community and everybody kind of had that whole

[00:11:27] thing and I also couldn't acknowledge that a lot of people probably weren't happy but this is what

[00:11:34] they this is their plan this is the plan that they're following and that's it so when it comes to

[00:11:40] divorce and the struggles that we have um like I said before you are doomed to repeat these things

[00:11:49] if you don't learn the lessons my lessons are still coming to me and in doing that I like to

[00:11:57] say I'm going back I'm going I went from Andy to Andrew and now I'm rediscovering Andy and

[00:12:04] there is a lot of good things in there before life kind of came around and made me a little harder

[00:12:12] but if I had kept holding on to the way things were going to be or the way the things I

[00:12:20] the world was telling me how they should be I was going to I'd be dead I'd be dead or close

[00:12:27] to dying right now like I had some really dark moments in between those therapy sessions and before

[00:12:33] and it's not easy and I have had several people say to me I didn't think you were going to make it

[00:12:41] I was worried about you and for a lot of us when we are going through the hard times because let's

[00:12:50] let's let's call it as it is birth is hard you know there's doctors there's nurses

[00:12:56] so a rebirth can be hard too but when you get the right people around you that support you that are

[00:13:02] going to put you that care for you or for you a lot of people that care for me weren't even I

[00:13:11] had never met before and they weren't even in my country but they cared they we would talk we would

[00:13:19] you know FaceTime do all these things and having that support team helped with my rebirth

[00:13:28] and the joys that come from this rebirth is you get to decide how you want to be you get to

[00:13:34] choose your own furniture you know it's not what's the pros of divorce you get your own

[00:13:42] furniture yeah there you go eat what you want to do it for the ottoman yeah

[00:13:51] but you get to discover in my case I got to discover my preferences I got to and I'm still

[00:13:56] unlearning my because it's not it's not who I was just in the marriage it's who I was in life

[00:14:02] and it's okay to say you know I am not going to be able to change in this and

[00:14:09] you're starting fresh there are three things that are the hardest people say on a person and it's

[00:14:16] you know in three life events it's divorce moving and death well I had two of those in like a matter

[00:14:22] of months and you know that third one kind of teetered before I got to it and that's okay

[00:14:29] I'm and I'm trying my best here to be open and honest with your reader or your listeners because

[00:14:35] I think a lot of times we go on our social media and we see everybody living a beautiful perfect life

[00:14:40] yeah and it's just not the case it doesn't help so my role is to come in here to and go like look

[00:14:48] some days are better than others but it's only a day it's only a moment and those days get better

[00:14:57] and you know it's never a straight line but if you start discovering your truth and who you

[00:15:04] are and what you're meant to be and why you're on this planet in this existence you are going to

[00:15:10] grow into something that can serve people and you know I can't share too much about this but

[00:15:19] what I will say is in my harshest moments in the last three years or so

[00:15:27] I didn't understand why I was going through them I even had a harsh moment last night

[00:15:31] I was telling you before I went on some medicaid some anti-anxiety medication and I'm weaning

[00:15:37] myself off and the weaning yourself off is just it's horrible I'm also fasting right now because

[00:15:43] I'm a sucker for punishment and just why not if you're gonna suffer do it all get it all done

[00:15:52] right don't do it half-assed don't do it half-assed put it all in so but when I went through all this

[00:16:01] suffering I had my friend tell me it's like you know you're going through this so that you can

[00:16:05] help other people and this is long before I was into energy healing or anything else

[00:16:10] and I said I don't know how this is gonna help people but I just got back from doing some work

[00:16:15] in Atlanta my friend has a wellness center down there and I was working with people down there

[00:16:22] and every time I sit with somebody I have this ability now to go oh you're feeling you know

[00:16:31] lack of self-love lack of appreciation lack of courage lack of self-worth you don't know what

[00:16:37] it's like to feel worthy these are things that most of us are not going to deal with unless

[00:16:44] we go to somebody and sit down and say look I want to work on this and the thing we start

[00:16:49] off with is never where we end up because again it's usually the leaf on the tree that's waving

[00:16:53] around that makes you notice the wind it's the whole tree that needs to come out

[00:16:59] and when I when I see those things I can look at them and go you know I'm helping people

[00:17:07] because of the pain I went through and if I had just learned it from a book

[00:17:12] it wouldn't have worked it's not the same thing you know you're you mentioned you're

[00:17:17] a dentist and I'm sure you know if you've had a have you ever had a tooth cold or like have you

[00:17:23] had dental surgery yourself when I was young yep yeah so there you go okay so you know it can be

[00:17:30] painful oh yeah and that makes you a better more caring person as you go through what you're doing

[00:17:37] because you know that it's painful and you've probably had people too where you've dealt with

[00:17:43] you know that haven't experienced dental pain and they're like oh you're fine it's like no no this

[00:17:49] this actually really hurts right now it's like the medicine's not working or something's going on

[00:17:55] so it just makes you a so the pain that you experience through these things not only does

[00:18:00] it help you grow but you can be open and help you with sharing your experiences that helps other

[00:18:06] people grow and heal with their pain yeah definitely I'm gonna do a shot in the dark

[00:18:11] and I've been thinking about this how has your accountant life helped with your healing life

[00:18:18] there's gotta be some connection okay yeah there there is so uh my specialty in accounting was

[00:18:27] database work so I was a terrible accountant but what I do is I work with with records and stuff

[00:18:34] I'm good at solving puzzles so um interesting the way it's it's helped me is to put pieces together

[00:18:43] that people may not see so if somebody comes to me and says you know like

[00:18:52] I have a money problem which is a lot of the times what people start out with

[00:18:57] it's never the underlying symptom and it's just kind of learning that okay you are

[00:19:05] you're here about money but it's not money it's self-respect why is it self-respect it's because

[00:19:12] you messed up at some point probably very early on in your life probably five years old

[00:19:21] the story came to mind that I'm not going to share online but anyway

[00:19:24] uh but as that stuff happens you start digging down into the dirt where nobody wants to go at first

[00:19:31] but then you kind of get to the root of it all you can pull it out and it's that problem-solving

[00:19:36] mentality of uh of accounting and you know that analytical mind which is very masculine very

[00:19:46] spreadsheet it

[00:19:50] spreadsheet it

[00:19:56] damn okay um but like for me that was all my life it was just like if it wasn't on spreadsheet it

[00:20:02] didn't exist and now I'm having to get myself used to this uh I guess they call it more feminine

[00:20:09] energy more kind of you know uh more ethereal and that's the hard part but at least I you know it's

[00:20:19] I have that analytical part of my brain that I can use in this which really helps people get to

[00:20:24] their root problem quite a bit faster than normal how does self-care play a part you know I'm a big

[00:20:31] self-care guy uh my my favorite story is you know when the plane's going down you know you

[00:20:38] don't put your kids mask obviously the mask on first you put yours first because if not you want to

[00:20:42] die you can't help your kids and a lot of uh guys who are 40 don't see that you know they

[00:20:48] want to take care of everybody else and not themselves but yeah there we go put my hand up there

[00:20:56] yeah so when on that moment when uh when I was accepting that my head and my heart were

[00:21:07] disagreeing and that was the analogy that was brought up to me and you can see how things

[00:21:12] kind of come through circle here and they said you know like why do they tell you that unlike it

[00:21:17] doesn't matter I'm going to put it on my kids first like you don't have time to do that like

[00:21:21] doesn't matter you know I couldn't put myself first and to the point where even last night

[00:21:27] in this hard moment I'm like I was thinking to myself I need to start prioritizing myself because

[00:21:33] there are habits that we fall back into when we're low energy you know like you've been running

[00:21:38] certain patterns your whole life so for me what I do with self-care is um I'm trying to schedule it in

[00:21:46] a little bit more uh you know I was at the Hay House convention or a conference a couple weeks

[00:21:55] ago and I bought myself like a infrared sauna so I can just go it forces me to sit without

[00:22:01] anything like your head just kind of pops up and you're sitting in it so it just forces me to sit

[00:22:07] I've developed a lot of routines and care procedures for myself the challenge is just

[00:22:14] making sure that I keep to them that's why I try to schedule them in like I was up at 5am this morning

[00:22:19] I did the things that I needed to do I did my meditation have my little coffee that I have

[00:22:26] every morning uh get some fresh air all all the things and then I go to uh my ex is very generous

[00:22:34] I go to the house every morning to see my kids for a little bit and like just for like 20 minutes

[00:22:40] half an hour to get this watch them get on the their teenagers but you know and then I go back

[00:22:44] after work to to do that and before I do any nighttime sessions and whatnot so I'm always

[00:22:51] making that point of making sure that I'm getting the things I need because for me self-care is seeing

[00:22:56] my kids because I enjoy that and it's self-care is it can be as big as going on a trip or as small

[00:23:07] as saying you know what I'm gonna put some sugar in my coffee day I normally drink a black but

[00:23:12] today I'm going to put some sugar in it and that's my treat you can tell food starting to

[00:23:17] play a thing with the fasting right now by the way I like sugar I used to put sugar on my frosted

[00:23:22] flakes so don't yeah who loves sugar nice um let's talk about the financial parts ensure a CPA

[00:23:31] what kind of advice can you give the guys because I mean you know the guys that were 40

[00:23:36] with the 401ks and things like that what general advice can you give them after the divorce

[00:23:40] going through the wars you know because you're gonna take a hit I took a hit I mean I almost

[00:23:46] started from scratch I tell people that happiness is not overrated and you can't put a price on it

[00:23:52] yeah your net worth is not your self-worth um and I know there's a lot of people out there who

[00:23:59] they stayed together because of finances oh yes um and I won't speak to those uh and I don't know

[00:24:09] like as far as 401ks but as far as like divvying up assets and stuff like that um it's to me it sounds

[00:24:18] like it's quite a bit different in the states than it like it does it vary from state to state for

[00:24:22] you guys yeah kind of very state for state but mostly is is 50 alimony ends up at 40 percent

[00:24:29] things like that yeah so there's kind of there's kind of like hard numbers in most states okay

[00:24:37] so when you go through that it's hard you're resetting you're starting from scratch but that's

[00:24:45] part of a rebirth too the lucky part is of a rebirth in your 40s is that you don't have to

[00:24:51] go to college in high school and do all the things that you need that you were doing before you're

[00:24:57] able to keep going um so the rebirth can happen financially on day one and it's uh it's not easy

[00:25:08] call it as it is it's not easy i have found with a lot of this that kindness is the way to go

[00:25:17] not for them for me count kind you know it's always good when you think you have a good

[00:25:24] quote and your tongue gets in the way of your words um but kindness is a form of self-love

[00:25:31] and when i am kind to other people i'm saying to myself it's not worth getting worked up about

[00:25:38] you're not taking your money with you now i'm not saying that it's uh that's the be all end

[00:25:44] all i bought a sauna you know a portable sauna last week so money is is a thing in life

[00:25:50] but it's not the only thing your health is more important the impact that the finances have on you

[00:25:58] mentally and emotionally are more important than the finances themselves a lot of us are so clinging

[00:26:04] onto all the financial stuff of things and that's where a lot of resentment comes up that's where

[00:26:10] a lot of fear comes up and when energy attracts energy and like attracts like you have to start

[00:26:19] you have to start kind of seeing yourself and going like look yeah i'm you know what you might be

[00:26:25] thinking and this wasn't my case but you might be thinking you know i went to work all these years

[00:26:30] and they were at home with the kids why do i have to do this and it's like because that was the

[00:26:35] agreement you went into i believe you were 50 50 how you split that up 50 50 can is a completely

[00:26:42] different thing everybody's situation is different but you were a partnership for a certain amount of

[00:26:48] time and the second you can put yourself in the other person's situation and look at it and go oh

[00:26:57] god that yeah that would be that would be scary to be at home for you know all the time with

[00:27:04] the kids and now not having you know any skills that being out of the job market that would be

[00:27:10] you know a very different thing so when it comes to the financials like specifics

[00:27:19] i think it's too broad to give advice but just know that like these things are not yours

[00:27:26] i will say this as far as work and everything else goes when it comes to financials and all that

[00:27:35] stuff they change they change daily our finances and if you want to hold on to the hatred of having

[00:27:43] to give half or losing half that you're saying it you're effectively it's it's hurting you more

[00:27:50] than it's hurting them hatred is just a hatred anger all that negative emotion is holding on

[00:27:55] to a hot cool thinking it's going to hurt the other person and the sooner you realize that

[00:27:59] and kind of let it go you can start moving forward and my attitude is you know like 401ks

[00:28:05] recite savings houses everything else those are all important but maybe finding something you love

[00:28:12] doing that maybe doesn't pay as much as it did before is a better path that you can enjoy

[00:28:18] and you don't have to retire from maybe you just enjoy what you're doing i know it's kind of

[00:28:24] polyanna but if the stuff's not making you happy if the relationship's not making you happy

[00:28:29] something needs to change and you know i i think you just need to be willing to allow yourself to

[00:28:38] forgive heal and move on it's a hard thing to do for most of us but oh definitely that's part of

[00:28:43] the growth self-identity and i think you've touched that quite a bit um self-identity

[00:28:51] a lot of men over 40 have kind of lost it you know they take a they take a hit in the gut

[00:28:57] what's a good way to figure out who you are where you've been to get that self-identity back

[00:29:03] i think and when you want to discover who you truly are it's honoring that voice inside i call it the

[00:29:12] voice behind the voice because when you're suffering when you're in trauma you have your ego just

[00:29:17] screaming all the things they cut me off they did this i you know i'm right basically it's going

[00:29:23] i'm right i'm right i'm right everybody else is wrong but behind that and i just started listening

[00:29:28] to this book that's like well who's listening to that voice who's the person listening to that

[00:29:33] because our ego is just part of it so when you can kind of start to honor yourself

[00:29:41] through the little moments in the day that's how it comes i think a lot of us go like well

[00:29:46] i'm gonna self-actualize i'm gonna go sit on a mount on top and do that well you need money

[00:29:50] to pay for your mortgage if you're gonna sit on a mount top even if you're in colorado and the

[00:29:55] mountains are closed right we're from the streets yeah so you gotta you gotta just take the little

[00:30:03] things like and start honoring who who that person is and it's okay if you don't know part of

[00:30:10] it is not knowing part of it is being able to go you know what i don't know what i like so i'm

[00:30:16] gonna try a couple of things and see if i like them you know it turns out i you know don't like

[00:30:21] soy milk so i'm not gonna i've never tried soy milk i tried it i hated it i'm just gonna move

[00:30:26] on to almond milk you know it's a really really small basic thing but it's giving yourself permission

[00:30:31] to try it's also giving yourself permission to fail because you're rediscovering yourself

[00:30:38] you're in a lot of cases discovering yourself and that takes time yeah you would never look

[00:30:44] at your baby and say you're not running yet you know like i started crawling yet like that's

[00:30:51] that's ridiculous but like for crying out loud we have to be kinder to ourselves you are you are

[00:30:58] the only person you are stuck with for the rest of your life and you deserve to treat yourself

[00:31:03] with kindness grace and ease and if you don't do that you're gonna come back in another life

[00:31:08] and you're gonna have to repeat this all over again and that's uh that's the truth my truth

[00:31:15] maybe not yours but it's mine but that's the thing i tell myself a lot of the time

[00:31:21] all right andrew we're gonna close this out but i got one for you so you got a guy in an infrared

[00:31:27] sauna and he's stuck and you can cut off his skull and open his skull up and he's a divorce

[00:31:33] man over 40 and you have three things to give to him to put in his skull what are those three

[00:31:38] things love kindness and courage dang bang man you're the quickest one yet dang

[00:31:46] of yourself and others of yourself okay all right yes all those things you do for yourself

[00:31:54] you have to you have to let your light shine from within and let it go outwards that's how it goes

[00:32:01] it's not the other way and when you can be kind to yourself when you can

[00:32:05] give yourself permission to be courageous when you can love yourself then you can give that to others

[00:32:12] but you have to learn to do it to yourself first self love is the only way you're ever gonna learn

[00:32:16] to truly love another person well we want to thank andrew for giving me those words of encouragement

[00:32:22] for a man over 40 and this is gonna be fun to edit i can't wait to get a hold of this

[00:32:28] yeah splice it together and and everything else but thanks but thanks for your words andrew

[00:32:35] and uh have a good weekend and we'll talk to you soon thank you so much for having me all right bye